That is such utter ****!!! You don't deserve this!!!
Please, keep trying though. Don't give up. Please.
People do care. A lot of people. I do and so does eveyone else here.
Maybe if you talked to your boss, she would understand more than you think? At least, you wouldn't have to pretend everything is OK. That takes so much energy.
I agree, go back to that clinic and ask again for the help that you need. Explain again your work restricitons. Squeeky wheels do get the most attention.
And go to the ER at a different time of day. You might get diferent docs, nurses, and social workers on a different shift.
Some people do not care or understand mental stuff. But others DO!!
Keep trying. Even when it's hard, it's worth it. You are worth it.