ok, I left T a voice mail to ask for an email address where I could write (this was a first) and got a voicemail back saying there isn't one, but if you need to talk, let me know when

and ok, so I called back - between sessions (for only the 2nd time in 14 months) and said, no, you don't HAVE to call me back... I'm just way down, and can't seem to shake it, and sort of said why

doesn't she know that that means, I really need you to say something here? Can't she read my mind?!?!