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Originally Posted by 3velniai
I asked my T today if it was ok if i bring something and give it to her instead of reading it. She said she wants me to read it aloud. Well, that's it. No journal excerpts in therapy. She also asked why i don't want to read what i bring and I said that reading equals speaking. She said it does not. I said for me it does. We excahnged a few more questions and answers on why reading equals speaking for me and what would be different if she read it, and then i moved to some distant foggy place and didn't come back.
I took my cell and looked through sent text messages, it looks that i have sent her a message "i want next appt to be the last". And I found another message in drafts folder, that says "please cancel my next appt". Yeah... nice... what do i do next?..
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. I dont think it's fair that T is taking this outlet from you (indirectly) by making you read out loud what you wrote. I get that probably wants you to say it out loud (only speculating), but clearly you wrote all this down for a reason...b/c you can't say it out loud, right? Thats how I am. I handed something to T at yesterday's session. She asked me to describe something to her later in the session and I told her it was in the paper I handed her and she said okay and left it alone...she's great
And I completely overstand you when you said that reading out loud what you wrote is the same as speaking it because they are your true thoughts only written on paper and having to read say those thoughts out loud (even reading it from something you wrote) can be excruciating (at least to me) and I think your T should understand where you are coming from
(i am upset for you right now--i dont think that's fair..hmph). To me I feel like it's safer to write it than to say it as weird as that sounds.
If you stop bring journal excerpts, do you think that will be less inclined to share things with your T? If so, can you tell her this? Maybe she will be more willing to see where you are coming from???