ARRRRGGGHGHH!! This is getting all too much and I'm gonna EXPLODE!!! Everyone hates me, everyone wants me gone. Gone, Gone GONE!! Why don't I just f*cking go???!! I just overheard two "friends" of mine having a conversation.

Sam (the girl that was there when the rape happened)
and Charlene.

Sam: "You're coming into town with me in a minute"
Charlene: "Why?"
Sam: "because I'm fed up of this S**t that's going on. nothing's happened. I'm going to pizza choice (where the guy that did it works) and then I'm going to the f*cking police station because I'm fed up of this."

So, yeah.. She's going to the police station.. When I've done ***** all wrong and I've just been told to go there myself and tell the police that she's giving out all this s**t about me, when I'm right there and that I can't live with that as well as all the s**t stirring she's doing. But to be perfcetly honest? What can they do? They can't put a restraining order against her because she lives in the same building as me.. I'm seeing my old key worker tomorrow, i'll see what he can do..

I just don't know how much more of this I can take, it's dragging me down and as hard as I fight for it not to bring me down, I'm falling deeper and deeper and I can't do it anymore, I really can't *cries* I'm feeling like my life is going to be the death of me.. All this is really hurting me too much...