Hey all,

So I had appointment #2 with my new T yesterday. It didn't feel to me like it went nearly as good as appointment #1. :-(

I've been on medical leave for over two months. Though there were a number of incidents earlier this year that got me started on the road to depression, I had been coping... until a workplace bullying incident with my new supervisor sent me over the edge. (She started working there just a month or so before I went off on leave.)

Last week, my T seemed to empathize with my situation, and I really felt like my feelings had been validated. She said that something my boss said or did must have struck a nerve with some deeply rooted fear/trauma that I have. (It did.)

She also said she thought that my boss was a narciscistic (sp?) serial bully, and that it sounded like I was suffering symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of the experience. We talked about what some of those were.

This week, it was like she totally forgot what she said to me last week and at one point, I even felt like she was kind of mocking me. I do tend to take everything personally, so maybe I misinterpreted her comment - I'm not sure.

I'm going away for Christmas, so we don't have another appointment scheduled now until after the New Year. Right now, I don't even feel like I want to go back.

I don't know what to do. Should I cancel the appointment? Should I go see her as scheduled and try and tell her how I feel? (Not sure I can do that... I'm the 'flight' in "Fight or Flight" and would rather just run away from it.)

Any ideas?

Thanks,

MHH