I guess I left a lot out of my reply in regards to my faith. I was brought up in the church and it was just something we did because of my mother's faith. As a teen, I rebelled against that as I did everything else in my life. I was the bad wild child.

After my period of rebellion (hmmmm, is that over?), I started to rethink my faith and started to reintroduce myself back to God's word by reading and studying the Bible and talking to God on a regular basis. My faith has always been very strong, although it has certainly quivered during times when I have become suicidal. But none the less, even though my faith has been rattled, it's still strong in my life. Do I always follow the way I should? I wish I could say I do but we all know I don't. I fall short, way short of what He would want for me.

I have also suspended my faith in order to explore if there was another *way* that may be more valid for lack of a better word. I've debated my faith against those who don't share it with me and I always come back to my own faith as being the only true way for me and my life.

So, I guess what I was saying in my previous response is that now my faith is non-negotiable, not up to any suspension and that is because I've already done that many years ago. I'm satisfied and happy with the beliefs that I have and today I stand firmly in those beliefs.

I hope that better explains my position.