I hear you sittingatwatersedge, I remember once when I was as close to the edge as I got and my work T asked me how I wasa going and I said Fine and he said great! and I thought hey Hello dont you know Fine means -

Frazzled Insecure Neurotic and Everything in my life if crap! - dont you have your mind reading hat on?! for crying out loud I expect he walked off down the corridor thinking that's good she's feeling better! LOL

And asking for things when you know in your heart the answer will always be NO! and not wanting to be Needy because in my head Needy = Victim adn so I have No Needs - this is a Need Free Zone ! where's that suprehero when you need him! Reaching out = being slapped down

I think we (I) am looking for the SuperT who knows what I mean when I cant find any words, who knows when I say I am feeling a little dark that I am in a pit of despair and that when I say I am "handling things well" it means I am hanging on to my sanity (what little I have) by my fingernails! So far I've only found HumanT's who take me at my word - hey if you're out there SuperT - you know where I live (he reads minds you know) see you in ten mins! P7