Too bad for me it has swung to the depression side for me. I struggle to stay awake and if I am awake I struggle with all my trigger points. So I just make myself go back to sleep. I'm not eating, I'm not cleaning house. I just get up shower and crawl up on the couch and turn on the T.V. and stare aimlessly at the screen and just veg. I don't venture out of the house unless it's to go to the mailbox and then I crawl back into my hole. I only go out of the house to go to my mom and dad's to get my weekly money and to go to therapy. Oh I go out to lunch once a week on Sunday's with my parents and Grandma. That is torture.

I want this to end. I want to swing back into the other direction. I have mentioned this to my doctor and he says just to hang in there that it is probably just the holidays that have me like this. That it will end that it always does. He won't do anything with my meds until he sees me face to face and I can't get an appointment with him until my scheduled appointment which is in the end of January. That's what I get for having a good pdoc that has his own practice where he is the only pdoc there.

Thank you for reading my rant.

Jan