hi jbug, i was a little shocked at your pdoc's response to how you are doing and the delayed time to see him. if you continue to feel the way you do, i'd call him again and insist he see you, INHO. yes it may be the season, etc but it may not too. sometimes for me a minor adjust in my meds for a short while would keep me from going down as far as i can go cause we put the skids to it.
..and rant all it takes to get it out, k?
i'm a jan, too. 
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