(((((((((((( clara ))))))))))))))))

I can really understand the climax issues that you are having as I am struggling with that myself, please don't feel guilty.
I also wanted to point out that most people settle in several forums, so you don't have to limit yourself to just one you can find a few forums that you are comfortable with and post there.
I know that you said that you don't want to have to pay for emotional support, therapy is more about learning new coping skills to help us along our journey of life. You may really find it helpful, plus I think it would help you see that your problems are not all that rare, alot of people struggle with these issues.
If you need anything feel free to pm me.