For me having to take pills to relieve the anxiety or pain is a major issue that things are not well with you so I think you may need a new T who doesn't think that this is OK.

I speak from experience that things progress badly if you do not address things NOW. I am 54 & had my last suicide attempt 2 1/2 yrs. ago & am still attempting to get stability after that (bp 1). And it was a neg. comment from my husband of 34 yrs. that set me off! I really have needed help since I was 15 (1st suicide attempt) & have not gotten it. Please don't go as long as I have. You have so much to look forward to. Don't waste as many years as I have. I am pursuing wellness aggressively now. Maybe by 60??--Suzy