Hi Clara,

From what you've said I think you already have decided that therapy can help you - you've had therapy before and stopped?

For me the hardest thing was making the appointment - the next was actually turning up! and saying things that I considered stupid and timewasting that I should just be able to handle on my own or get over was hard - yes I felt I was taking the space of someone who deserved help more than I did (never thought I deserved to be helped anyway) often thought Im wasting his time - and how do I say this or that when its so trivial against what happens to others - therapy is hard work for me - having said that - I'm not scared to go to shopping centres now - I have learnt techniques to deal with flashbacks, nightmares, panic attacks and a whole raft of other things - its not an easy road but the end result is that we can live more of our lives instead of hiding away from the world (which is what I wanted to do)

You say you are weak - but you were strong enough to come here - that is a brave thing to do - you are thinking of therapy - that is a brave thing to do - sometimes the road to recovery is one step forward three steps back but its still a road we can travel - take care and let us know how you go P7