You may want to consider going to see a psychiatrist to get on the right medication. Counseling will not be enough for you because it sounds like you are headed to a destination that only medication can stop you from going to. A primary care physician may be able to prescribe you a antidepressant for you too. Whatever you decide to do about your bf, you need to help yourself before you can focus on fixing your relationship. Self comes first!!! Seek help from a medical professional, please.

MsGie