Hi Sophia
First off can I ask did you paint your profile picture? If you did you are very talented . I know how hard it is when you loose a loved one be it friend or family and people tend to deal with it in so many different ways. I lost someone this year and being it a family member and she knew she was on borrowed time I still find I miss her talks and cards and advice . But she was very prepared for the end and told everyone that where she was going it wouldn't hurt her any more and to live life for her to the fullest we could she was in so much pain and thankfully she passed in her sleep but I still miss her She gave everyone strength to do what they had to do after wards. But the biggest thing was to remember the love and think of what they would like us to be doing to remember them.
You come across as a very strong willed character who would be great to know
I'm sorry about the jobs situation and stuff but there are others here that may help .
Do you write?
I`m at a mental block right now but will have a look for you at things ok



daggy