Hi back. Nope no apologies necessary. Anger is part of depression, and often is considered the cause of depression when we turn our anger in towards ourself! This sounds like what is happening for you.

I, too, have had to go through this phase of grief. And just like Kubler-Ross aptly pointed out, the levels of grief are not mutually exclusive. We can be in more than one at a time, and just because we go "through" one phase doesn't mean we don't return to it later on.

The truth is, NONE of us are who we used to be. While the industrial accident changed my life rather quickly and made that decision for me... I have to believe that I wouldn't have stayed the person I was back then, anyway.

I hope you feel better. I hope you can realize that it's never too late to be who you really are!

Come and post often and gain the support you need. It usually turns out that later on the member can give back, when they can. Nobody keeps a tally anyway.