Timeforsleep, and Junerain...
I also have these feelings. I think there is a God of some sort, but not sure it is the one who is worshipped in organized religion. Though I was raised in a traditional Christian church, I have trouble believing in the graphic representations of Heaven and Hell. I believe the reason people turn out badly is largely due to conditioning, poor treatment, and perhaps genetics. Would a loving God punish such people? I don't think so. I think we pass on to a higher existence because I do believe we are more than our physical bodies.
Patty