Thanks everyone for your support, I really needed it ._. today, I got in trouble with my teacher. She wanted us to start taking papers out of our binders to write with, and put our binders below the desk....My binders half broken, and I didnt want to do that...so I refused. She got a referall out, and I listened...a few minutes later I found myself putting my things back into my binder, she got a erferall out, and I asked her not to do that...so she sent me out side with me thinkinking if I went outside she wouldnt send the referal....... I banged my head against the wall because of frustration, I was crying. She came out and told me to s top, so I did...another girl passing the hall told me to stop it and to get help -_- at lunch, my friend wasnt there...I cried again. I needed her but she wasnt there...oh well, they cant always be. Went back into class and the teacher gave me a lecture on how messed up I was...I tried explaining to her my issues, but she wouldnt listen....she told me maybe I needed to switch schools ? What was this implying ? That I'm mentally incapable of going to a normal high school ? -_- and that she was going to send the referal anyway.... and that she " Feels sorry for me as a person " I dont want her pity -_- I dont want pity... not like anybody would understand....

I see myself as more like my father every day...my personality....and I hate that man. To be like him is worst then death -_- Why must I be be the daughter of such a man and a woman whom I barely know ?

-_- Others have it worst then me...I shouldnt complain...I shouldnt complain...

I shouldnt complain. Sucks when you have someone cursin at u inside ur mind 24-7, and others wanting to do other things. Really it does...I'm a liar though, to some people.....

heh. - listens to music and lulls self to sleep - thanks for the support, I appreciate it. It helps me to survive..... - gives cookies -