*Mentions of anorexia and bulimia so possible triggers*

First of all, I am sorry some jerk said something mean to you. Many people do this because they find it amusing to pick on people, whether they need attention, just like to feel dominate, feel jealous of something you have, are insecure themselves, etc., but it is almost never about the person they are making fun of. It's not about you. It's about him.

I looked up stones and apparently 9 is 126 pounds plus the 6 pounds left over leaves you at a mere 132 pounds at height 5 foot 6 inches. You are not fat. Seriously. You're not. Are you sure you are seeing yourself in a realistic manner?

I am terribly sorry that your mother ignored you when you needed help. I bet she doesn't realize how important it is that you need to talk. Could you talk to her when she's cooking dinner or something? That way she'll be tied to the kitchen (you can get her in one spot for long enough to tell her the problem), BUT she probably won't be as preoccupied as if she was watching t.v., so she might be able to listen better. Maybe start out by saying, mom, this is really important. I need to talk to you. If she realizes it's serious, maybe she';ll slow down and listen to you. If not, could you give her a letter? Can you talk to the school counselor?

Starving yourself may make you lose weight at first, but in the long run it will harm your metabolism and make it more difficult to lose weight and keep it off. It will also destroy your psychological and physical health. Not having enough nutrients affects the mind and the body, can cause problems with your skin, hair, etc. And I don't know about you, but when I lose weight too quickly, I get stretch marks, like I do when I gain weight. Plus, if you lose weight quickly, sometimes it causes you to yo-yo. I had this problem. It's bad on my skin, so I find my skin will look better if I take things more slowly. I will also be more likely to have lasting healthy results if I slowly take off pounds. Plus, you want to have the energy to enjoy your new figure. Once, I tried not eating much to lose weight and maintain the weight loss. I had little energy, my hair came out, etc. It's not a place you want to be. My cousin had anorexia and he caused permanant physical damage to his body. There are better ways to lose weight than starving yourself or purging. Purging can also cause damage to your teeth. If you have probs with your hair, skin, and teeth, and look tired all the time, you will just beat yourself up over those things instead.

You certainly are not a fat pile of crud, as you seem to think, though. Frst off, you're a human being, not a pile of crud, and secondly,. your weight and height do not sound like tnat of an extremely overweight person, anyway. Please do seek support and help and don't let stupid people get to you. People know weight is a sensitive issue for many women, so they may use insulting comments about our size to bring us down, even if they do not believe what they are saying. And MAYBE you could ask a doctor about a healthy weight range for you, and a healthy diet and exercise plan. Good luck and you can always come here for support.

I do understand not liking yourself. I don't care much about how I look sometimes either. I just don't want to see you hurt yourself over some rude jerk, a view of yourself that's not realistic, and unhealthy weight management.