thanks you so much for your reply. I've been feeling so guilty...and my bf said it wasn't fair to me...he told me I should go to therapy...at least someone cares about me...it's been really tough and I've had break downs in highschool before. I emailed my teacher because I thought I was going to kill myself...my bf worries about me often and he's always trying to lend me money but I feel horrible...I don't like taking his money and it's not his rsponsibility to take care of me...thank you for replying it's given me so much relief to know this...and I'm very sorry how your mother treated you...I hope things get back on the right track for you and I'll keep you in my prayers