I have a real problem with anger. It used to only be a problem when I was younger&got so drunk I'd black out&get enraged when someone I didn't know touched me. Back then I'd assault them. I just turned 40 this year&have started to remember a lot of VERY unpleasant things&I'm mad as Hell at my perpetrators. I talk to myself in public a lot or direct it at my bf when I feel he's taking me for granted or not paying enough attention to me or being understanding enough, I also yell at the cats&at inanimate objects. Really, my bf's just there&available for me to lash out at-he does the same thing back which intensifies my anger. I don't want to be angry all of the time. I used to be able to stuff it&I stayed pretty spaced out&unaware on different psych meds than I'm taking now. My t says I'm more aware now of when someone isn't treating me like I want to be treated because of my new meds. I don't expect people to kiss my butt-it ain't worth kissing. I just want a little empathy,kindness,friendship,peace...&for people to stop forgetting I've been to Hell&back. Are there any healthy ways to deal with anger that won't cause constant relationship problems, me in jail, or being ignored&labelled as just crazy&to be avoided. I get judged a lot because of my anger-it literally forms an aura around me that repels people. I'm disabled&don't have many friends, but I do have a t, but he's not good at offering tips on how to express anger in a healthy, non-destructive way. Any advice in the form of words, "I've been there's" or books or articles to read would be great.