You know you could visit a men's store and talk to any male clerk whom you really like the way he looks and his attitude ect... or even men you work with, ask their opinion and for their assistance. Who knows? Maybe you have been caught in some time warp or something with the way you dress??? Maybe mistakenly you have bought or added something that is demonstrative -in your area- to connote an alternative lifestyle???

I think, also, that you don't have good memories of when you were developing your "maleness" and maybe didn't have a strong father figure to help you... that those types of things might be holding you back from portraying what you wish?

What do you think?