yep I think Lieing would finish it for me - or betraying a confidence - I dont really think my T thought i was wasting his time (i hope not ) but I second guess everything and look for hidden meaning when I am over anxious - which is a lot of the time -

"good to see you" - hey what did you mean by that ? good to see you cos you're sooooooooo crazy you shouldnt really be allowed out without a keeper and a lead! LOL I have to keep reminding myself that people sometimes DO mean what they say.

I guess it comes down to i dont think i deserve to take up time someone else could use more productivly or take time from someone who needs it more - and so i lay a guilt trip on myself before I even go into the office - and then replay things in my head later and overanalyse them - but hey i guess thats one of the reasons I need therapy LOL