i went to bed early tonight feeling sorry for my self, but come midnight i was awake waiting for TRM to finish watching tv, now i am awake not sure do i still feel sorry for my self or what, so i got up to look around pc, i also started using facebook more activly reacently

this is where my post is going, my brother and me havent had a lot to do with each other over the years, but he is still my only sibling left, well tonight i see his status msg ''cant do it any more , bye '' so i left a msg bk whats up, he doesnt seem to be around,
i learnt reacently his marrage came to a end and i now he drinks a lot

so i left him a msg

''i read your status and was a bit concerned, not sure what you are refering to, but i hope it isnt what i felt back in summer of 05, i couldnt carry on any more, i did some stupid stuff took a load of meds after a night shift luckly TRM found me in time, i spent the day in hospatial didnt know what to do, all i wanted was to be with dad, i told you the other day i suffer from depression it runs in the family apparantly mum sufered with it bad, a lot has happened to us in our lives we all handle it diferant, at the time i didnt want anybody to tell you as we dont seem to have much to do with each other i didnt know what your reaction would be, only person i asked to see was aunt ????? strange after all the ppl i know i asked for her maybe it was the link to dad, she reminded me about growing up with no mum and would i wish that on my own children so i promised i wouldnt do that to my children, times have been hard fighting against this but i am slowly moving on, i stlll often have thoughts that would be a lot easier than fighting this life, i have now been taking meds since march 05, so i hope this isnt what you are refering to its not the answer
love your sister kathy
xxxxxx''

edited it for pc