Last year I gave her a gift. I don't think she celebrates Christmas so it was an end of the year gift.

I felt it was awkward and I don't want to do it this year.

I've also crabbed about how I don't want to give to anyone but my son, yet there is the expectation that I am participating with others.

If I do give her a gift, I would have no idea what to give her this year. It almost seems too personal, too revealing to give her something.

I wonder if I'm angry that she has, on several occasions, not given me what I want, so I'm stading with my feet apart and hands on hips saying (as my friend's little daughter did once after being reprimanded) "You don't be nice to ME----I don't be nice to YOU!!" lol

I don't know, I'm just feeling really indifferent about it.

And all this could change in a blink. One really great session and I will be wanting to give her the moon.