I understand how you feel SoSadMom. I have personally travelled to Kenya and Ecuador before and in Ecuador I helped build a school for a village. The people there lived off of $2 American a day and despite the fact everything is a lot cheaper, it is still very, very little, yet the people were so filled with spirit, hope, and most of all, life. To a large degree it is the Western culture we are put in that affects us to become depressed and leaving us wanting more, and the majorty of the population is as such, but there are also times when one is not well mentally no matter how hard they try. It is important to find a fine balance between things. I feel that you have a good start because you realize that you could be feeling differently and you have been trying to see outside your world, and your life. There are many with or without mental health problems that often so stuck in their own lives they do not even try to enlighten themselves by taking a look around them to see the big picture. If you find yourself depressed, do not try to enforce on yourself the thought of "I have all of this, I should be better and stop complaining" because in the end, each of our experiences are unique and those experiences are really the only thing we can compare to because we have lived them. With that being said, keep looking at the world around you because it will help you appriciate your life just a little bit more.

Good luck SoSadMom, you are on the right track.