Thread: Surrender....
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Old Dec 14, 2008, 12:43 PM
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What a great tpic. We've gotten several new members since I was here last. I'm greatful to be reminded of surrender. I surrendered in the beginning when I took my first second step. Since then, surrender has been important on a daily basis for the maintenence of my sobriety. I've been through some horrific events these last seven and a half months, starting with going blind and having to leave pc and my job, then my cat dying, bf's mom being dx'd with cancer, my aunt reaching out to me for help with her drinking and then dying of a hert attack...looking back I see that by surrendering on a daily basis and knowing i did not want thsthese events to take my sobriety, i have been able to grow in sobriety as the sober woman i want to be.

A few weeks ago I went to my first memorial for a man who had lost his battle. the oldtimers always say the longer we stay sober the more bodies we'll walk over. after three and a half years i had become spoiled...then i got the shocking reminders that we battle a deadly disease. i'd rather live blind, free happy and joyous, with the amazing friends i have today, then see again and be drunk.

i was blessed to purchase this talking mac laptop on friday and can now rejooin this community i love so much. a few months back i surrendered to the fact that i needed therapy. what a blessing my t is. she has helped me grow even more. i've also started working a new sponsor going through the bigbook with her. i am now embracing the changes in my life as opportunities to stay sober through adversity and show it can be done.

however, i'm not embracing the changes in the layout here lol. or the fact that it looks like lenny has replaced me as the resident l sober mod tee hee. no hard feelings lenny. so glad you're here and the rest of the new people i'm p meeting. great posts.

excuse typos...talking computer not so easy.

hugs,
rayna
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