I looked up that disorder you were talking about and some aspects of it sound exactly like me while others are opposite.

I definately am a 'picker' and thats why I always get scars from zits and stuff because I cant just let them heal normally. But the thing that doesnt fit with me is the getting surgeries to fix things and not being satisfied.

Growing up I always had a huge gap in my front teeth. My teeth are perfectly straight, just spaced out so my dentist told me that when my wisdom teeth came in (he said when I turned 18 they should start from looking at x-rays) that my teeth would be pushed together so I didn't need braces. Well 19 roles around and none of them have even started like he said they would. So i had braces on my front, top 6 teeth for 2 months and it pulled them together and now my gap is gone and I don't even think about being self-conscious about my teeth anymore.

Or like when I found out I had PCOS and had to switch BC and all that crap I started getting acne real bad and hated it. So I bought that Proactiv and now I have like 3 zits at a time that heal in a few days and Im totally satisfied.

So when I do things to fix what I don't like about myself I am satisfied. But I think just growing up goofy looking has sank in now. So now that Im considered "hot" (apparently) I dont think about it like that because this is a new thing for me.

And I dont even know how many times my bf has said "Seriously... I have dated some pretty good looking women and you are by far the most attractive" but it still doesnt sink in. I guess it has a little.

And I do focus on little things about myself but I wouldnt call it obsessing. I dont constantly think about it. I dont stand in front of the mirror for hours or try a bunch of crazy products to look more attractive. So who knows. Maybe Im just in the middle between just having low self-esteem and body dysmorphic disorder.

But after reading it I think my boyfriend might have it! I know its more common in women than men but he really does fit the bill with it. He says all the time "I know Im ugly, you dont have to say it" or "I know what I am. Im okay with being fat and gross" and no matter how many times I say the opposite he doesnt believe me. I told him he was just as bad, if not worse, than me because at least i realize what i do to myself. He does the same stuff (talk down about himself) but he wont even admit it! Ugh... men lol