I want to thank all of you for your kind advice. I think things are settling down. I thought it was going to be harder to accept our relationship, just as friends, but it has been easier since I had a few breakdowns. However, I do find that when I spend more time with her it is harder for me to keep my thoughts on the path that I need to. The thing I just keep telling myself is that this is God's plan and if I am not to be with Erin, I am not to be with her, and if I am to be with her later in life, I will be with her later in life. But for now I need to remember that it is God's plan and His timing, so things will happen when they are supposed to and with the right people. Once again thank you, but I don't think I will ever accept the fact that we will only be friends. I think I will always have a desire to date Erin, unless I do find someone 100 times better than her, which is hard to think of because I have idealized her and she is practically perfect, but one day things could change.
Thank you all,
WillMoe
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