My bf is gone for a month to iran to visit his dieing grandmother whom he is very close to. I've been having troubles at home and have great depression. my sister won't be coming down because she wants to be with her bf. My nieces are going to see my brother and his fiance and they are not going to visit my parents because they are fighting and it's just me and my parents. No money for presents...I just lost my job and am looking for another one so I can pay my way thoough school. I don't know if I should tell my bf that I don't want him to email me while he's gone. It gets me upset when he doesn't reply right away...I cried because I wait for his reply and it when he hasn't replied it's dissapointing and gets me upset. I thought it would be easier to just forget him for a month and it will be easier for me to get through this. I feel my bf is the closest relationship I have. He's closer to me than my parents. He means a lot to me...but sometimes he hurts me becuase he does not fully understand my needs because of my problems. He says he would never hurt me and wonders why I get upset. He wishes I would trust him more. I trust him but he hurts me without knowing it....I just want to forget everyone and do things for myself. Without having to check my email inbox...I won't have to worry about whether or not he has emailed me....I know it sounds dumb...but he's the one person I look forward to and need