I am so sorry things are so hard for you elaton. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. Sometiems the depression takes away all the motivation we have. I know how hard it can be to get out of this rut you find yourself. Can you find someone to talk to; a counselor, t. Many times you can find them at your local community mental health building; or they can help you find someone. I am glad you reached out here and hope you find the support you are looking for.

BB