Hello needhelpckr, welcome to psych central. This is a great place to meet friends and find support, I hope you find as much help here as I have.
I agree that maybe you should try the therapy and med combo, I really think that it would be helpful for your situation. I know that you mentioned that counseling became to expensive, there are some therapists that work on a sliding scale based on your income, so it may be something worth checking into. It sounds like you have had a lot to deal with in your life and I am sorry that you are suffering. Do you have visitation with your kids?

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