Thanks guys. I appreciate your comments - all of which are useful to me.

Putting my trust in a process is very difficult for me, as my natural inclination is to distrust other people and their motives. But I am trying to be more open and have more faith in others. I just want to make sure I am on the right path. Your comments have reassured me somewhat in this.

I am especially pleased that you all seem to be making progress. I am very pleased for you. For someone with BPD to even state something like 'trust the process', is surely a big step forward.

Many thanks to you all and I hope you all have a good time over the holiday season.