My heart goes out to you, as your life seems to parallel mine. My husband and I would fight, now that I'm in another country in school, we can fight long distance. We have been married for 10 yrs also and we have 4 children (3 are ours and 1 is mine). He also wants all or nothing- married or divorced. There may be some control issues occurring in your relationship as there are in mine I'd love to talk further.
from Elaine
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Originally Posted by BlackTears
Arnt holidays suppose to be happy??? They havnt for me for a long time. I finally started seeing a pshyciatrist and to my surprise I find that I really like him and its easy to talk to him.. Despite the fact that hes a guy and I didnt think i would be able to talk to him because of my past childhood. But I can and I feel good when I leave his office. I started some new meds to. I told my husband that I wanted to seperate for awhile so I can try my best to fix me. We fight everyday and it hurts our kids. I just want to do it for awhile till I can sort through and get myself better our fighting dosnt help me at all.. But he said to me that if I want a seperation then its over for good. I dont know what to do. I have such conflicted feelings about it. I really want the seperation for my kids and to help me, but how do I move on and just drop 10 years of my life?? Were not happy and really havnt been for so long but I feel like I half to be with him I half to keep my family togeather.. I just dont know what to do.   |