Hello marsh2114, it's nice to meet you. Welcome to psych central, this is a great place to make new friends and find support. If you have any questions feel free to private message any community liaison or moderator, here is a link to a list of the forum leaders.
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showgroups.php

You asked "is there ever gonna be any hope", There is hope, things can get better. Are you currently in therapy? I don't know where you are from but here if you are disabled you can qualify for disability medicaid, which does cover therapy.