I think Sky is very correct in the whole concept of NOT taking responsibility for your actions when triggered. It is a tricky thing. I find myself apologizing endlessly for things that I did reflexively or sometimes for things that I cannot even recall. The result is that I am really hard on myself, and it makes my self-esteem plunge even lower than it already is.

Those who know me well, know that I 'react' sometimes. They know that I will get through the initial reaction and regain my control. I do have some awareness of my triggering, and I am slowly learning to control the duration of the reactions.

But am I making any sense? Those who know me, know to give me space and time. To everyone else, I continue to apologize on and on. I spend a lot of time by myself. I have restricted the amount of time I spend online and tuned into the news... and that seems to reduce my overall stress level. So I try to do all I can to minimize the likelyhood of triggery.

But as Sky is saying, I have PTSD, therefore I trigger. It is about as controlable as keeping your knee from jerking when the doc hits your reflex spot on your kneecap. Of course I will try my best to mop up the damage.