So ive been depressed fpr over 3 months without anyone to talk to. I was dying, shut off from the world without anyone to talk to. I found this site seeing if there was some way to help myself without having to talk to my parents.

I joined, and started talking on here about last thursday. I talked with some of you last night in the depression chat.

Now i feel better. is it possible for months of depression to get better almost instantly? i cant explain it. i woke up like i had a reason to. i was able to talk to people at school today. really talk. i didnt feel shut off at all. i felt happy.

its wierd, being happy again, and it makes my months of depression seem silly.

but im afraid. what if i was just on some wierd one-day high? what if i have built myself a tower of false hope that is doomed to come crashing down any moment?

so im happy. actually happy. but scared to death. the change was so sudden. i dont want to go back.

thanks to everyone who has responded to one of my posts, talked with me on a chat. you really are lifesavers.

but i do have a good reason to be afraid, right? i do have a good reason to have hope, right? i dont want to die again.