Tgr, I'm glad that you realized what the 'hunger' really meant on that sorrowful day of your mom's funeral years ago and have been able to move on from that now.

I didn't think my trauma had anything to do with forgiveness as far as my assailant is concerned because for some reason, maybe because I was a child, I didn't harbour any feelings one way or another towards him personally. I only see him as a very sick individual that I later found out had a prior history of other sexual assaults. He obviously wasn't getting and continued to not get after mine, the help that he needed, since he was never prosecuted.

I do feel that there is a lot of pain and fear still in me from this trauma in addition to other traumas I've endured since then. I've had several other traumas that are far worse than this one. In this case, I only saw this person one more time since my sexual assault. He was not someone that I knew, he was a stranger to me. I'm still working on self-forgiveness in relationship to this trauma and have made great progress in that aspect.

I've never heard of regression therapy, what is that? Sounds scary to me but then again what therapy in regards to traumas wouldn't be. Even though they are scary and we could be worse in the process, they are necessary in order to be freed from our suffering.

It is a heavy burden to carry. You say dump the load. That's the key here isn't it? How do I dump the load that I've been carrying for all these years? Thanks for your reply.