I'd be away with my bf this Christmas, too. We'll be with our parents and this means we'll be apart longer than usual. I think I can relate to your feelings. It seems like I don't want him to text me anymore because he seldom do it. Unlike before wherein he texts me like whole day and night. But today, not anymore. I'd even be surprised that he's already back to our apartment when he texts. That's why sometimes I don't text him back right away or I just end the text conversation. But like me, I know you'll feel better when you get back together. Just find some things to keep yourself busy. I also hope you'd get a job soon. Take care.