This thread is created great distress to me. I understand and feel so much of what you have all said...... except that my husband is not mean to me in any way. He provided, is a good husband and father BUT I just do not love him the way a woman should love her husband.

That makes me a monster...... why can't I make myself love him? At least for the children.

Isn't this the choice I made to marry him and have children. I made my bed and need to lie in it.

These are the cards I was dealt and I need to play them.

Honestly, whos to say that I would be any happier if I left? I think it is the knowing that he is good to me and not being able to fully fake it that is killing me.

And I know for a fact that it is slowly killing my spirit, soul and will eventually over take me and I will die of this. At this point, I am okay with that because I don't see the alternative.

I can't tell him that I don't love him passionatly. I do love him, just not the love that I desire.

I'm glad that we are all in this together cause I am scared and I don't want to be alone.........

soul