and without the darkness you would not be able to see the light.

a strange thing happened i couldnt get to sleep (usual) but when i did I slept deeply and didnt wake up with nightmares through the night - and today im still sad but i think the darkness has moved back a step - and there is a glimmer of light i can hold onto.

I know ive said it before but thankyou all - this time i was not sure i would make it out of the darkness but you helped me realise that i had to tell the T i am seeing what was going on (well most of it) that sounds pretty basic i know but ..... i dont know... i thought if i talked about it it would let the demon loose and i would fall - it didnt happen - last night was pretty dark but today i see that there may be hope on the horizon. I still have my demon, he's looking a bit peeved cos im not listening to him at the moment! and i managed to help a friend yesterday so maybe im not such a waste of space after all ...maybe...

coming here and talking when i could not talk to anyone else helped me work out what i had to do to get back on track - anyway - thankyou thankyou and did i say thankyou!