T, my brother and my friend...please hear what my heart is trying to say to you.
We will always look back with regret and doubt...survivors guilt as it's commonly called.
That said...we cannot change the past in any way, shape, or form. It's a part--a part--of who we are. It is not our identity.
It took heartache and stupidity to understand that I still made a difference...many went home because of the actions of the medical folks, many did not because their wounds were horrific and we did not have enough of anything to save them...staying with them until they died may have been all we could do.

I cannot dishonor the good that was accomplished by the efforts of so many good people.
People like you, Troy. You failed at nothing, my friend. You may have been scared as hell but you covered backs...
Don't discount the value of your contributions during that time... and now.

I don't think it's just Vets that look back and think they didn't do enough--anyone with half a brain will wonder if they could have done more with their lives. It's called being human.
Yes, there's a difference...but their pain most likely equals ours just on a different level.

Peace and Power,
Cap