sex can be confusing Moonkin, sometimes i think i have caused myself more harm by worrying what i think i might do or want to do, than ever actually doing it... maybe thats the purpose of worrying?

anyway, strong impulses return because they require attention... i recommend accepting the idea that you have these impulses, then decide if they are healthy.. if they arent, why do them?

sex impulses are sometimes our strongest impulses because they come naturally and with little stimulus... porn and other expressions of sex arouse us and that is very natural...

personal opinions about the related industries regarding sex might create conscious attachments in the forms of lingering desires or guilt.... these meld together and the impulse becomes stronger... release and satisfaction become necessary...

the way we release and satisfy is how healthy we will be...