was thinking about the ex wife today.. still hurts a lot to think about and dont mean her any harm ... she was younger than i ... she wanted a chance to excel, succeed, raise a family, be in love.... our relationship began as a family kind of friendship.. she was very young then and i watched her grow, was her friend, she fell in love...

i was still in pretty bad shape those days.. i could function but couldnt really connect with my emotions and we didnt communicate well... the depression was overwhelming but i tried to do the right things, the right stuff that would help the family grow.. we had a child together and we both adore him...

but we differed in our ways and the gap grew wider.. i tried to reach her but we kept missing each others hand... it didnt really end well.. a lot of hurt and confusion... circumstances stacked the deck against me... our son loved her so much i finally had to give up the battle.. i didnt want him hurt anymore