Oh K-, you make me smile. Why? Because you are so full of life and energy now....even if it is fraught with fear and hurt...you are planning for the future!! You have dreams that you now see as reachable and that makes me smile. First off--you put me wanting your album for Tori to the back of your list....I'm just super-geeked to hear it whether it's in two weeks or two years. You have your goal of finishing it before 18 and that's great, but you take me right out of it because it should not be adding pressure to you. We're just excited, not pushing you.

I only said to be careful about your friends uncle in context of him texting her and you being triggered yourself by things that have happened to you. I am so glad that she has realized there is light and hope and she is taking steps to feel better too. Sounds like you two will be good support for each other! Remember, though, you have a habit of being a "caretaker" and neglecting you--so support, but care for you first!

I think it's important that Connor know that this rape has affected you and affects how it feels to cuddle and to make love and to even be touched. Yes, it happened and is over, but it gets relived anytime you are touched, sometime maybe for no trigger at all. Please try to make him see that, be gentle but firm. I know the desire to make love is there for you, but don't put your emotional and mental well-being at risk...take it at your pace.

I think it's awesome that you want a disabled kitten. Normal is such a subjective word...that kitten will be normal...his normal, not another cats normal. Before you take on any responsibility, make sure you are ready for it and if you believe you are and have thought it through, it's your decision....thank you everyone else for your input, these are my reasons and I'm ready.

Regarding the baby please know that abortion or keeping the baby are not your only options. My personal beliefs wouldn't let me have an abortion, and I don't think I could live with that thought. That's just my belief, which I would never push on anyone else. But know, too, that there is adoption. When you went in after the rape, did they not do a pregnancy test? If you are pregnant, regardless of who the father is, remember its yours too and your decision. Just because someone wants you to do something does not mean you have to. But to be responsible, you have to look at the impact on your life, what place you are in emotionally, financially, socially and everything. I pray that the results will be one that you can handle right now...please remember to take things one day, one item at a time and you are not--are not!--alone!!