Thanks sj, I'm trying to put it to good use.

My next step is going to some support groups, but I keep finding reasons (excuses) to not go. Didn't finish work in time, don't have time to get cleaned up, the kids might refuse to go, I'm afraid to go meet strangers, it's too far away, it's too early in the day, it's too late in the day, no one will believe what I went through....