I think that's great that you feel good for having cried, as hard as it was to do initially. I hope it helps you not be quite so afraid to open up more. I use to think of my crying as part of a defense system and as if the crying had breached one of my defenses! It took getting into a smaller and smaller space inside of me before I realized one can only go so far "in". I finally decided to deliberately refuse anything of the "fetal position" :-) about me, to keep talking/working no matter how painful it was for me, to keep talking (or listening) to T, no matter what. Then I didn't even think about crying, it quit being an issue.