Today I felt really down because all the decorating is done and I got all the shopping done for my husband. Now I feel like there's nothing left to do. Sometimes I think I just don't get the Christmas "season". So much build up for just one day and usually not even a whole day. I wanted to decorate and shop because that's what everyone else does and it seems to make them happy. Doesn't work for me though. Last year we didn't really celebrate Christmas and I think I was happier. I'm mad at myself for buying into all of this, thinking it would somehow bring me joy. Argh! At least it makes my husband feel good. I think it's because he sees me getting involved and doing something besides sleeping, eating or watching TV. Oh and I went WAY OVER the budget buying stocking stuffers for my husband (that's all we're getting for each other is stocking stuffers). So I'll have him get less for me, which is okay because I don't really want or need anything (besides maybe some chocolate lol).