I feel like I'm not exhibiting enough symptoms to say I'm depressed but I feel really "blah". And I'm crying a lot. And I'm tired.
And I just feel not right.

But I'm able to get things done.
I'm not in bed all day every day. I even have a job. [which is actually really stressing me out even though it's only part time, but still]

So I just feel like I'm not depressed "enough" to be feeling as badly as I do. Like the defect is me. ME as in myself, what I can control. The "why-don't-you-just-perk-up-and-get-some-fresh-air" me.

I don't know.

I wanted to join the bipolar chat but I have to make more posts or something in order to be allowed in.

Maybe some other night.