Though there is controversy over the rationality / a-rationality / irrationality of phobias...

Do you have any thoughts spring to mind? how do you envisage their conversations going when they are talking about you? Are they talking kindly or not? Are they understanding where you are coming from or not? Would you feel better if you could be a fly on the wall or not?

Did your parents used to talk about you when you weren't around but you found out later? How about other people in your life? Teachers?

It can be hard to figure out what is going on sometimes...

Hang in there.