I am all weird about going tomorrow because I want to tell him 3049823049823 things, but at the same time, I want to do EMDR again.

However, I know it is really important to share what occurred after EMDR, post-session. I had very positive results (which obviously came from a combination of the EMDR and the depth of the connection with T), and then the feeling changed when I had a negative experience with my H. In addition, I want to process the connection that T and I shared, and also talk about the sadness he shared along with me.

I didn't say much about his sadness. Just at the end of the session I told him, "You got sad, too." He said, "I did. But it's in my contract... I'm allowed to get sad." At that point we were smiling at each other, and he usually ends the session with a bit of humor because it helps me to not walk out of there feeling empty, or wanting to punch a wall. However, for this particular session, there was no way I would have walked out feeling empty or angry.